just bite the bullet

at some point I have to learn to see the bigger picture, am I too nice to be a teacher? Yes perhaps for below college. It seems my efforts to discipline are not quite working, in addition I need to be more assertive. But what does that mean? I think I have a clear idea on sticking to my values but does it mean that faking to know the rules? The issue is that there is no structure and the rules keep changing, so how do I keep up? I guess I could make my own system and reward system. I also just need to study for the GRE and take it...even if I do not get the desired score, I know I would have tried my hardest. In addition I can write an additional essay perhaps or talk to the admission specialist? Or professor. Let's see and find out all the scholarships and look up schools that I can go to...