in this day and age

who do you know that blasts classical music and loves listening to it. Who believes in keeping their culture's values and traditions, who doesn't care about they way they are dressed (except for interviews and such), who doesn't want about alcohol and drugs. Me...I do all these things I believe in myself and I know I am so capable of doing bigger and better things. I am the one who's holding myself down.
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” By Marianne Williamson from A Return To Love: Reflections on the Principles of A Course in Miracles

My goals

so today I was thinking what I was going to do if things didn't quite go my way. I am so scared that if I don't do well in my class I won't get to be a psych major anymore but then I remembered that if that is so what's the worst that can happen? I have to change my major and start again, so it'll take more time but I will figure it out. Here are some things that I want to do

1. graduate with a 3.0 or better
2. get into a grad school
3. teach classes
4. go scuba diving
5. go backpacking (anywhere)
6. visit European countries
7. go to India again
8. defend myself and make my family realize I am an adult
9. have confidence around my family
10. learn to be sharper and better
11. get an A in any major class
12. get a letter of recommendation
13. get an internship
14. get a part time job

to live with roomates

It's never easy to share a room or an apartment with people you don't know. But living with them teaches you a lot of things that you could have never learned by living alone. Living with others is not for everyone you either love it or hate it. The disadvantages are that even if you think you are getting along with your roomies there's bound to be arguments or  misunderstandings. The important thing is to always talk it out in a calm and rational manner. If your roommate/housemates are not willing to listen then ask for help through mediation programs but don't expect much if your roommates aren't willing to share or solve the problems. The next best thing is to just live it through and make friends so you can live with your friends next year. Join a club, get involved to make friends there are plenty of opportunities. I have lived with difficult roommates but they helped me be a better person and understand how to cope with people who are unwilling to listen to you.

to Volunteer and Beyond!

I have promised myself that despite my setbacks last year as I had a lot going on this year I want to help out as much as I can and try to give my time to the causes that I believe in. I also want to go kayaking with friends but I guess I might have to do it alone. I will try to get people to try it though maybe if I tell them how much fun it is :) I really don't want to go alone but if that's what it takes and walking/biking 2 miles, then so be it! Today I had $1 ice cream cone :D a local shop has a $1 cone on Wednesdays so I took advantage

back in past

so I have started to re watch lois and clark: the new adventures of superman. Ah yes old memories, it was such an awesome tv show and Teri Hatcher and Dean Cain were my fav actors :) they still are. I almost watched desperate housewives just coz of Hatcher, but I did find it appealing. She can do way better than that show. But I guess you can't choose if you're under the radar.

life as I know it

it's so strange I feel restless, uninterested and crazy. I am no longer interested in anything but pursuing my goal of reaching a state of self realization. I want to read as many spiritual books as I can. People have such wrong ideas about God. There's no one path that leads to him but in fact all paths do. There's nothing wrong with being a murderer, homosexual, adulterer etc God loves us all. I suggest you read Paramansha Yogananda's books as he can explain it better. Such an amazing yogi, he is. I think it's so important to believe in your values but also accept people as they are. I used to write anything and everything I felt and needed to let out.

So I am back

Yes I was helping my aunt pack and unpack. My goodness packing is such a chore and unpacking is worse especially in a new home because you have to make so many decisions on what goes where. I hope I never have to move. I know I know moving is inevitable...hire movers? Definitely :) but it's so darn expensive. One day I know I will have a job with income but that day has yet to come. I have reorganize my whole room as it's such a mess but I will be victorious and deal with it. Clutter be gone!