just bite the bullet

at some point I have to learn to see the bigger picture, am I too nice to be a teacher? Yes perhaps for below college. It seems my efforts to discipline are not quite working, in addition I need to be more assertive. But what does that mean? I think I have a clear idea on sticking to my values but does it mean that faking to know the rules? The issue is that there is no structure and the rules keep changing, so how do I keep up? I guess I could make my own system and reward system. I also just need to study for the GRE and take it...even if I do not get the desired score, I know I would have tried my hardest. In addition I can write an additional essay perhaps or talk to the admission specialist? Or professor. Let's see and find out all the scholarships and look up schools that I can go to...

My desire to go to grad school

So I have been thinking of going back to school for my masters or phD. I really want to get a higher education. My only hinderance is financial issues, and my grades.  Also I need to take the GRE and I simply do not have the resources to either take the classes or the exam for that matter.  I need to win the lottery or something for this to happen. Even if it's $5,000 I think it would help me out a little, but these days that's not a lot. I think my best chance is to find a library that has all the new GRE materials (since they changed the exam) and hope that it's enough to take and pass the test with flying colors. Timolino PAB-46GRE 16 oz. Color Signature Travel Mug Red

the good life

So what's the good life? Waking up late, going to work, doing what I want living my life and enjoying my life. I am the master of my own destiny, it reminds me of the following poem, it's called Invictus by William Ernest Henley Invictus Out of the night that covers me, Black as the Pit from pole to pole, I thank whatever gods may be For my unconquerable soul. In the fell clutch of circumstance I have not winced nor cried aloud. Under the bludgeonings of chance My head is bloody, but unbowed. Beyond this place of wrath and tears Looms but the Horror of the shade, And yet the menace of the years Finds, and shall find, me unafraid. It matters not how strait the gate, How charged with punishments the scroll. I am the master of my fate: I am the captain of my soul. William Ernest Henley This poem inspires me to do better, be better live to the fullest sort of like the YOLO (you only live once) thing. It's funny how one song, a poem can describe how you feel. Of course I have my problems and complaints but why dwell on them

this little world of mine

I am finally growing out my hair, it's taking longer than I planned. I have so many goals, sometimes I feel I have been spread too thin. I really need a break from all of this and take a mini vacation just by myself on a beach drinking coconut water and eating fried cassava with salsa. That sounds so delicious and great, the water being warm like in Tanzania. Then I would go snorkeling or scuba diving :) meet some dolphins and have a great time. Hawaii sounds cool too, oh and I am now obsessed with pineapple thanks to Psych (the tv show) anyways here I am ranting again.

Haven't written in a while

There is so much going on in the world, both good and bad. The good, there are many people who are doing their best to better the world, the bad some of those people are set in the wrong path. Either by racist views or some other wrong view, but who am I to say what is wrong and what is right? All I know is that I do not tolerate hatred against another. There are many issues as the world goes into Kali Yuga (the dark ages)it is only going to get worse. I just hope I am not here to see it. My part will be to pray for a better world, pray that people realize that a union is not only between a man and a woman but can happen between anyone. We all have to learn to be kind, including myself, everyday is a test sometimes I pass and sometimes I fail. I am grateful of the things I have, the only thing I want is a better world to live in. To all my readers even those of you who choose to hate me, may you have a blessed life.

Campbell's Kitchen: Zesty Beef & Rice Skillet

Campbell's Kitchen: Zesty Beef & Rice Skillet

can you say amazing this is so easy to make and it tastes great :)

the time's almost here

so I am finally finishing my Bachelors in Religious Studies I will be done in December 2011. My B.A. is an informality because I want a masters in Teaching English as a Second Language (TESL). The reason my journey took longer than most is because I have been through a lot for someone my age. I lost my mother to God two years ago (which is okay because I am happy for her), I moved to U.S.A. and basically had to start from scratch education wise (low Math and English score, but that soon changed). I thrived in college and transfered to University of California, Santa Barbara where I am doing okay for someone in my position. Someone wise once said "It's not the education that's hard, studies are easy, it's the financial troubles that get a normal working class student" I believe there are so few opportunities for students with low income in my area. There are many in sciences and engineering (at least in California). I have been struggling to balance everything and it is very difficult. It's affected my spiritual and personal life, I lost touch with people that matter most to me and that is unacceptable. I need to try to balance my life and keep in touch with people I love especially my old friends. I think I need to break free and discover myself through teaching English in Korea because I'll be doing something I love and gaining experience I need to not be a student for at least one year out of my 17+ years of constant studies.