saving for my birthday

so I have done a lot of thinking, and I want to go kayaking for summer during my birthday. I am going to start saving money from now, and take a week or less off. I want to go to La Jolla and stay in a hotel/motel, even if I have to do it alone. However I also need save money because I will not have enough money for summer, I need to find a better paying job with stable hours.

Love others and it shall be returned

People do not realize what you ask the universe to give you, the universe will deliver! It is a simple idea, but it is a fact. Watch/read The Secret, and you will see what I mean. I am not very good at describing other people's ideas but I can tell you mine. Why would you want to waste your time in hating the people, things which are bad/evil? Why don't you choose love instead? Love your friends, family (I know it's hard), and everyone else. We do not practice true love in this world anymore, what is true love? The ability to wish someone well even if they did something bad. Have a little more empathy and try to do good! Counter evil with good, not tit-for-tat! I can only hope more people realize this. Love
Asma

Xmas and new ventures

So it's Christmas, all who believe in Christ will hopefully celebrate Him...as a Religious Studies major I can safely say that all the religions who believe in Christ whether as a Prophet or as a Son of God, should celebrate what He taught. Love, Kindness, Tenderness. Today I heard an amazing tape on the radio labeled "from God", the radio refers to it as "The God Tape" it's very touching. It goes something like
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_8eVdW-GqaE
Please listen to it! It will truly make your day!
IN other news, I am reapplying for jobs abroad as an ESL teacher again. I think I have just been going around it with the wrong channels (i.e. the company was giving me shady answers). If I do not attempt and do not show my skills who will notice? Anyways, I could lament over how I could do things differently. I am not going to as I would not have progressed nor learned anything!

What not to do on a DATE!

Okay ladies, so I have been dating, and I like this guy, let's call him E (not his real name nor initial). So E and I have a mutual friend. After pondering and looking around, I began to realize I liked E more than a friend and I told our mutual friend X, and X set us up on a date. So after the 3rd date I finally told E that I like him more than a friend. We are still exploring where all this will lead, and it's all very early, but after the recent date...I am not so sure LOL. So, here's what I did WRONG and caused annoyances...NOTE: THIS is supposed to be poking fun at me and not E nor X...

Annoyance #1-We went at a little town (Claremont) and there was no "public" parking, so we had to park elsewhere. I wish we found the public parking that I had in mind.

Annoyance #2-He booted a flashdrive with linux system for me, and it did not run on my mac, despite him haven tried to compromise for my mac. Additionally, he stayed up late making that flashdrive for me.

Annoyance #3-He's borderline type 2 diabetic, and the yogurt place we went to did not have sugar-free stuff (on the website, it said it did!GRRR)

Annoyance #4-Since it was a small place and a lot of traffic, it made him uncomfortable and brought about his PTSD (he's a former marine)

Annoyance #5- I was mentally checked out, so when driving to another area, he was trying to make an exit and wanted my help to see if the road was clear. Thus, he said "help me" but I did not know what he meant nor did it register through my brain. 0-o

Annoyance #6-I almost fell after dinner...so the klutz factor came out....
so those were the main things I did wrong, however I know I did not have control over most of them. Not to mention, I had no idea that the town would bring out his PTSD...I WAS so embarrassed and felt so bad that I evoked those bad memories. Fortunately, E felt comfortable with me to voice these things as they happened. Therefore, he's good at communicating his feelings, emotions and in general. Yay! I did redeem myself by talking nerdy stuff (we are both into Star Trek: TNG, love computers, Star Wars, and other stuff)

Our dying Earth...is there hope?

Alright, so I am going to go all environmental-hippie chick. You know that plastic/can bottled beverage that you just drank? Guess what? It has bisphenol A (BPA) in it, please read about BPA from a scientific resource to find out more. That beverage was sitting in the truck for at least a week, and the toxin has leached into your drink. "oh but I only drink sodas/bottled beverages sometimes"...well do you eat canned food? It accumulates slowly, but there is a significance increase in your body in your lifetime! That's not even counting the fountain water you drink at work or any other place! The best alternative is tap water, yes it is not cold but would rather not help your body? So what if you want something nice and cold to drink? Buy a glass bottle drink instead! Old pipes? Well filter your tap water then! It's so much cheaper! Watch the documentary tapped, it will educate you more than I did. Then there is the acidification of our oceans! Think of all the dying fish! In one human lifetime there will no longer be any safe, consumable fish! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MgdlAt4CR-4Let's see what else? Nuclear plants, human electronic waste, Genetically Modified Organism (GMO/ foods), climate change (FYI: no more north pole). The Native American saying, "When the Last Tree Is Cut Down, the Last Fish Eaten, and the Last Stream Poisoned, You Will Realize That You Cannot Eat Money." Well folks, that's the harsh reality...are you going to sit there and do nothing? You can choose not to buy products, you can choose to write to your leaders demanding there be a change! Let us be the change we seek to be in the world.

just bite the bullet

at some point I have to learn to see the bigger picture, am I too nice to be a teacher? Yes perhaps for below college. It seems my efforts to discipline are not quite working, in addition I need to be more assertive. But what does that mean? I think I have a clear idea on sticking to my values but does it mean that faking to know the rules? The issue is that there is no structure and the rules keep changing, so how do I keep up? I guess I could make my own system and reward system. I also just need to study for the GRE and take it...even if I do not get the desired score, I know I would have tried my hardest. In addition I can write an additional essay perhaps or talk to the admission specialist? Or professor. Let's see and find out all the scholarships and look up schools that I can go to...

My desire to go to grad school

So I have been thinking of going back to school for my masters or phD. I really want to get a higher education. My only hinderance is financial issues, and my grades.  Also I need to take the GRE and I simply do not have the resources to either take the classes or the exam for that matter.  I need to win the lottery or something for this to happen. Even if it's $5,000 I think it would help me out a little, but these days that's not a lot. I think my best chance is to find a library that has all the new GRE materials (since they changed the exam) and hope that it's enough to take and pass the test with flying colors. Timolino PAB-46GRE 16 oz. Color Signature Travel Mug Red