dedication

Heartbroken by Asma Raja

You were my friend, 

you could have been my companion,

you chose not to be.

I thought we could still be friends,

until you decided that we shouldn't be.

It's one thing to lose a potential companion,

but it's heartbreaking to loose a friend.

I could have been your all, until you chose not to be involved,

and for what? Your work? Your work will not share your life when you get old.

I may sound bitter, if that is so, then you made me that way.

You want an aggressive woman? WELL, here she is!

RIGHT IN YOUR FACE! You wanted someone who 

does not treat you courteously, 

now I don't think I can be that anymore, unless you apologize.

Even then, I do not know if I want my heart broken again.

Huntington Library...

as promised the pictures....there are more to come :)

come together

This life is temporary, we have to understand what we are searching for. All humans are seeking "something" what is that "something"? It's God, you may think I am religious but not really. Religious is attachment to rites and rituals of a particular religion, I am unattached I just love God, that is known as Spiritual. I want to do more good, I don't think I can survive with the guilt that I could have helped more people. Unfortunately, right now all I can do is pray, not even give my time (volunteer). At least I am going to Huntington Library on Friday June 21st, I will post pictures :)

My therapy

My therapy is writing, it has always been that way. Ever since I was a teen, I have forgotten what it is like. I have noticed I can't even watch a movie at home without doing something on a computer or cellphone. I have become too addicted to games and such, and I am losing time with myself and with those around me. I have decided that whenever I spend time with someone I will not be on the phone, unless it is absolutely necessary. I will encourage the other person to do the same as I am taking time out for them and vice versa. Thus, they should be interacting with me, that is not much to ask. Without human interaction, we are going to develop into a intellectually poor people. I am not willing to be one of them, are you? I am so tired of being put down by everyone that I need to re-energize myself from their negativity and rise; that is much easier said than done. I wish I had time to do what matters most to me. Perhaps someday my day will come, and I have to make the effort into making that happen, somehow.

It's Almost April...

Warning: I am very hungry as I write this. So, lately I have been wondering about where I WANT my life to go. I cannot control what happens, but I can control the choices I make. I have to live with my choices whether they are right or wrong. If they are wrong, then I learn my lesson, hopefully! But most of the time, I am dealt with the consequences of my own choices. Usually, those consequences make me cringe and makes me want to scream and shout. Well, enough ranting...time to eat

the tale of two kitties

I think I am going to end up a cat lady. My bro has his cat, Rafiki (a boy, means friend in Swahili) and I have mine named Nyeusi (a girl, means Black). I love these two crazy cats, they keep me happy when I am sad, who needs a dog, they are so much more work. I am going to start writing short stories/novels again. I have so many ideas on Fiction, I just have to find more ideas and inspiration. I have taken many snippets of my life into my books, but I need to go beyond in order to be a better writer. Also any suggestions for a psuedo or alternate name? I want to keep my last name but I am thinking of using another name. Any suggestions? Ideas? Comments? Please feel free to tell me :)

Who are the real illegals?

So there is a lot of controversy in the senate right now for illegal immigration, everyone here is illegal, with the exception of Native Americans!  How can anyone justify what the pioneers did to the Natives? They stole their land, relocated them to harsh environments, took their daughters and raped them, gave them diseases, and robbed them for all their worth. Yet, they treat us kindly, gently and with tolerance. I dread to think if that happened today, what would we do if we did not have these advanced weapons? We all belong to the Earth, we need to learn to accept one another and live in harmony. Not define borders, not have a money system (it's called barter trade), no religion too!