Ever since I was young, I did not believe in the religion I was born into. There were so many inconsistencies that I couldn't fathom why I did not believe in it. I tried my best to fit in and listen to my mother's wishes, but I was beyond miserable. Lately the pandemic has been helping seek our truth within via meditation and reading books. Resources like books, podcasts, and youtube channels. A great motivational coach is Jay Shetty https://jayshetty.me/ his videos are really good, another good one is Dhar Mann https://www.dharmann.com/ I am listing resources for everyone so it's easier to access. I do not get paid for listing these but please leave any suggestions to improve upon or if you want me to cover any additional topics. I am still learning to be better but what works is asking yourself what is that you want via meditation. Call upon who you connect with, whether it Jesus, Moses, Vishnu, Ram, Krishna, Mohammad, Hazarat Ali, Buddha, etc.
Tuesday, August 11, 2020
Saturday, August 8, 2020
A New Day
I have always been a rather quiet child and naive too. Ever since I can remember I was bullied starting with my own cousins this was when I was younger but then we all became best friends later, to 1st grade and then again in 2nd (in a new school), then in high school (my other cousin who left for Colombo later and her friends). I don't know why I didn't stand up for myself, perhaps I was used to it or maybe I was trying to be nice. All I know is that someone else always stood up for me or helped me, in 1st grade it was my dad when he found out that a classmate was taking my lunch money, thus I changed schools. Then in 2nd a classmate used to punish me for no reason (she was what was called a class monitor), my other classmates stood up for me (they told the teacher that I didn't do anything). This is also where I met my best friend Sheliza, she too stood up for me against other bullies. In high school, again when my dad found out, he got very angry and told me to stand up for myself. I have just been going through life trying to please everyone else and not helping myself in any way, I was so used to being a doormat that I felt lost. It's only after so many episodes that I have learned to undo those ill habits and be a voice for myself. When I look back, I have already forgiven all my bullies, as they have made me learn to be better and learn empathy. I do wish I had someone to talk to back then and I could tell them what was going on, but I cannot change what has happened. Many books have helped me with my journey, my favorite is Autobiography of a Yogi by Paramansha Yogananda. https://amzn.to/3fBqwuh
Another one is Passage through Eternity by Azmina Suleman https://amzn.to/3fDzneX
these books have really changed my view on life, there are countless others too that have contributed to who I am today, if you want a list feel free to comment below and I will be happy to recommend more. I am always looking to expand my knowledge on metaphysical topics, but of course I enjoy fiction and other books too.
Monday, May 31, 2010
b'day wish list
- to be closer to He who is above all else
- proper chocolate cake (or something similar)
- a good lunch
- celebrate with friends
- b'day card(s) (even one!)
- that one wish tht involves :)
- someone to say you look really nice
- someone to say happy b'day in person
- to look awesome for myself :)
- end of finals celebration (collaborates with 3 and 4)