of love, duty and earthly life

This year didn't start well for me but I have hopes yet for it. I really do not care about money nor things. Yes sometimes in this life we do need to have things in order to function as a person on this Earth. If I could I would not do anything but simply pray and meditate in order to progress in my ibadat. Unfortunately that is not possible as I have to fulfill my dharma. It's sad to know that no body in my family except for my aunt truly knows who I am. Some other family members only have seen a glimpse of it, even my father doesn't quiet realize who I am. Only He who is above all else and my lord Ali knows what's truly in my heart. As a person on this Earth I may seem cold because I am not attached to anything and I am learning how to function as a normal person in Earth. Perhaps I was born in Sat Yuga and I cannot handle how Kali yuga has become. The only thing I can do is love and pray for others at this point. See you in the next world