Love others and it shall be returned

People do not realize what you ask the universe to give you, the universe will deliver! It is a simple idea, but it is a fact. Watch/read The Secret, and you will see what I mean. I am not very good at describing other people's ideas but I can tell you mine. Why would you want to waste your time in hating the people, things which are bad/evil? Why don't you choose love instead? Love your friends, family (I know it's hard), and everyone else. We do not practice true love in this world anymore, what is true love? The ability to wish someone well even if they did something bad. Have a little more empathy and try to do good! Counter evil with good, not tit-for-tat! I can only hope more people realize this. Love
Asma

Xmas and new ventures

So it's Christmas, all who believe in Christ will hopefully celebrate Him...as a Religious Studies major I can safely say that all the religions who believe in Christ whether as a Prophet or as a Son of God, should celebrate what He taught. Love, Kindness, Tenderness. Today I heard an amazing tape on the radio labeled "from God", the radio refers to it as "The God Tape" it's very touching. It goes something like
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_8eVdW-GqaE
Please listen to it! It will truly make your day!
IN other news, I am reapplying for jobs abroad as an ESL teacher again. I think I have just been going around it with the wrong channels (i.e. the company was giving me shady answers). If I do not attempt and do not show my skills who will notice? Anyways, I could lament over how I could do things differently. I am not going to as I would not have progressed nor learned anything!

What not to do on a DATE!

Okay ladies, so I have been dating, and I like this guy, let's call him E (not his real name nor initial). So E and I have a mutual friend. After pondering and looking around, I began to realize I liked E more than a friend and I told our mutual friend X, and X set us up on a date. So after the 3rd date I finally told E that I like him more than a friend. We are still exploring where all this will lead, and it's all very early, but after the recent date...I am not so sure LOL. So, here's what I did WRONG and caused annoyances...NOTE: THIS is supposed to be poking fun at me and not E nor X...

Annoyance #1-We went at a little town (Claremont) and there was no "public" parking, so we had to park elsewhere. I wish we found the public parking that I had in mind.

Annoyance #2-He booted a flashdrive with linux system for me, and it did not run on my mac, despite him haven tried to compromise for my mac. Additionally, he stayed up late making that flashdrive for me.

Annoyance #3-He's borderline type 2 diabetic, and the yogurt place we went to did not have sugar-free stuff (on the website, it said it did!GRRR)

Annoyance #4-Since it was a small place and a lot of traffic, it made him uncomfortable and brought about his PTSD (he's a former marine)

Annoyance #5- I was mentally checked out, so when driving to another area, he was trying to make an exit and wanted my help to see if the road was clear. Thus, he said "help me" but I did not know what he meant nor did it register through my brain. 0-o

Annoyance #6-I almost fell after dinner...so the klutz factor came out....
so those were the main things I did wrong, however I know I did not have control over most of them. Not to mention, I had no idea that the town would bring out his PTSD...I WAS so embarrassed and felt so bad that I evoked those bad memories. Fortunately, E felt comfortable with me to voice these things as they happened. Therefore, he's good at communicating his feelings, emotions and in general. Yay! I did redeem myself by talking nerdy stuff (we are both into Star Trek: TNG, love computers, Star Wars, and other stuff)

Our dying Earth...is there hope?

Alright, so I am going to go all environmental-hippie chick. You know that plastic/can bottled beverage that you just drank? Guess what? It has bisphenol A (BPA) in it, please read about BPA from a scientific resource to find out more. That beverage was sitting in the truck for at least a week, and the toxin has leached into your drink. "oh but I only drink sodas/bottled beverages sometimes"...well do you eat canned food? It accumulates slowly, but there is a significance increase in your body in your lifetime! That's not even counting the fountain water you drink at work or any other place! The best alternative is tap water, yes it is not cold but would rather not help your body? So what if you want something nice and cold to drink? Buy a glass bottle drink instead! Old pipes? Well filter your tap water then! It's so much cheaper! Watch the documentary tapped, it will educate you more than I did. Then there is the acidification of our oceans! Think of all the dying fish! In one human lifetime there will no longer be any safe, consumable fish! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MgdlAt4CR-4Let's see what else? Nuclear plants, human electronic waste, Genetically Modified Organism (GMO/ foods), climate change (FYI: no more north pole). The Native American saying, "When the Last Tree Is Cut Down, the Last Fish Eaten, and the Last Stream Poisoned, You Will Realize That You Cannot Eat Money." Well folks, that's the harsh reality...are you going to sit there and do nothing? You can choose not to buy products, you can choose to write to your leaders demanding there be a change! Let us be the change we seek to be in the world.

just bite the bullet

at some point I have to learn to see the bigger picture, am I too nice to be a teacher? Yes perhaps for below college. It seems my efforts to discipline are not quite working, in addition I need to be more assertive. But what does that mean? I think I have a clear idea on sticking to my values but does it mean that faking to know the rules? The issue is that there is no structure and the rules keep changing, so how do I keep up? I guess I could make my own system and reward system. I also just need to study for the GRE and take it...even if I do not get the desired score, I know I would have tried my hardest. In addition I can write an additional essay perhaps or talk to the admission specialist? Or professor. Let's see and find out all the scholarships and look up schools that I can go to...

My desire to go to grad school

So I have been thinking of going back to school for my masters or phD. I really want to get a higher education. My only hinderance is financial issues, and my grades.  Also I need to take the GRE and I simply do not have the resources to either take the classes or the exam for that matter.  I need to win the lottery or something for this to happen. Even if it's $5,000 I think it would help me out a little, but these days that's not a lot. I think my best chance is to find a library that has all the new GRE materials (since they changed the exam) and hope that it's enough to take and pass the test with flying colors. Timolino PAB-46GRE 16 oz. Color Signature Travel Mug Red

the good life

So what's the good life? Waking up late, going to work, doing what I want living my life and enjoying my life. I am the master of my own destiny, it reminds me of the following poem, it's called Invictus by William Ernest Henley Invictus Out of the night that covers me, Black as the Pit from pole to pole, I thank whatever gods may be For my unconquerable soul. In the fell clutch of circumstance I have not winced nor cried aloud. Under the bludgeonings of chance My head is bloody, but unbowed. Beyond this place of wrath and tears Looms but the Horror of the shade, And yet the menace of the years Finds, and shall find, me unafraid. It matters not how strait the gate, How charged with punishments the scroll. I am the master of my fate: I am the captain of my soul. William Ernest Henley This poem inspires me to do better, be better live to the fullest sort of like the YOLO (you only live once) thing. It's funny how one song, a poem can describe how you feel. Of course I have my problems and complaints but why dwell on them

this little world of mine

I am finally growing out my hair, it's taking longer than I planned. I have so many goals, sometimes I feel I have been spread too thin. I really need a break from all of this and take a mini vacation just by myself on a beach drinking coconut water and eating fried cassava with salsa. That sounds so delicious and great, the water being warm like in Tanzania. Then I would go snorkeling or scuba diving :) meet some dolphins and have a great time. Hawaii sounds cool too, oh and I am now obsessed with pineapple thanks to Psych (the tv show) anyways here I am ranting again.

Haven't written in a while

There is so much going on in the world, both good and bad. The good, there are many people who are doing their best to better the world, the bad some of those people are set in the wrong path. Either by racist views or some other wrong view, but who am I to say what is wrong and what is right? All I know is that I do not tolerate hatred against another. There are many issues as the world goes into Kali Yuga (the dark ages)it is only going to get worse. I just hope I am not here to see it. My part will be to pray for a better world, pray that people realize that a union is not only between a man and a woman but can happen between anyone. We all have to learn to be kind, including myself, everyday is a test sometimes I pass and sometimes I fail. I am grateful of the things I have, the only thing I want is a better world to live in. To all my readers even those of you who choose to hate me, may you have a blessed life.