b'day wish list

so there's 8 days left till my b'day and this is what I want

1. to be closer to He who is above all else
2. proper chocolate cake (or something similar)
3. a good lunch
4. celebrate with friends
5. b'day card(s) (even one!)
6. that one wish tht involves :)
7. someone to say you look really nice
8. someone to say happy b'day in person
9. to look awesome for myself :)
10. end of finals celebration (collaborates with 3 and 4)

Most of it is free but not all...spending some money is okay I guess I was a good roommate and bought my roommate a b'day card and gave her a Jamba juice gift card. Anyways till next time

soon

Ah yes the days are flying by. Soon I shall get to move! Things are working great I am sharing a storage unit with 4 ppl. Did I say I am moving? LOL I love saying it. I can't wait! Also my b'day is coming up and I am excited I bought a super cute dress it was a lil expensive but well worth it!  Anyways finals are coming up thus I am busy with studying. What can I say I am looking forward to summer where I can relax and do nothing ah but wait my cousin Marium is coming so I will hav loads to do and my dad coming's too...so maybe not a quiet summer but I love it :)

The quest goes on

On this Earth I am an adventurer and I am on a quest for enlightenment. So far the road's been rocky but I met a lot of people to help me. It's difficult when people my age have an entire different notion than I do but it's okay I firmly believe in my values and that's the reason I am safe. Why do you think young people are getting HPV? Well 1. they sleep around 2. their partners are not safe 3. their partner may be a one night stand. I believe that you should always talk about being safe with your partner and if they love you they will. So in summary I am glad I am not in a relationship

such wonderful friends and family

So for the past few days I will admit I was sad. But lately it's as though someone has cast a wonderful spell :) I am getting reassurances left and right from family and friends. Today one of my friends made cookies for me. I want to cry (with joy, humility and other words that I can't think of) Also the other day I was feeling sad and I met a friend on campus and he gave me a hug! I have been so blessed and I know he who is above all else is especially looking after me now more than ever. Prayers are a wonderful thing. I can't believe so many people are praying for me! I know that whenever I pray I do it with a pure heart and with utmost devotion. I know that prayers work. I have been busy but my lord has been hinting that He is there for me through my friends and family. Thank God for such great people in my life.

My work

So I am in SACC (Student Apartment Community Council) and I do a lot of work. I plan events for my residents, I throw an independent event. I love my job. Unfortunately I didn't get the position of coffee house manager for next year. I will still be a rep though. Maybe I can run as an Exec next year :) I love giving back to my community and doing voluntary work for the public. I thrive on altruism. If only I had more money I could do so much more and worry less. Anyways I have so much to do this weekend, Relay for life, Extravaganza (with music artists such as Drake and Chomero!) and Spring splash! I am involved in Relay and spring splash 

The Beauty of Friendship (with names)

Sometimes I feel alone then my friend calls me or texts me and it makes my day! My friends are such an asset and I am so blessed to have so many that are willing to do anything for me. Some say that family members cannot be your friends, I beg to differ. No matter what differences we have I will never forget my childhood friends who happen to be my cousins :) Thank you Kulsum, Marium and Safia. Then there are special people who will save you from bullies and you don't forget them Thanks Sheliza. In high school times were tough and along came four angels to save me Thank you Alkesh, Anisha, Ntale and Sajida. In University my mom was ill and I needed someone so much and I got a whole team of friends Thanks to Katie, Audra, Kevin, Richard, Kat I thank you for being in life. I love you my dear friends.

the weekend

Ah yes finally I am free and chillaxing (chilling and relaxing). I am really sore from all the biking I have done. I am just going to rest this mother's day weekend. I guess it's good that some of my friends have gone home for the weekend. I get to recuperate... and enjoy the quiet. I feel that I thrive on silence with meditation. Sometimes if I am really tired I do restorative yoga (savasana-corpse pose) or something along those lines. Today I just want to sleep all day..sometimes I wish I was a cat.

the middle & the end

Continuing with my story
As I grew older I realized that there was no need to be so depressed, I was still unhappy and I never understood why. I hated going to the mosque, I felt like I was choking and all the preaching was lies. I only went to please my mother and be with my cousins. I never once prayed accordingly but instead I prayed to God with all my heart and crying to him. I remember that in 2004 I went to England for my cousin Kavindar's wedding. There I reconnected with my aunt Rehana. I finally found solace as she told me about Imam Ali and how the bohora religion had it wrong. I was so relived to find this out and I told her about my beliefs and hating the religion. There she explained there is no need for such hate as it only leads to bad thoughts but more of to be aware of oneself and pray however one pleases. I went back to Dar and was a little more happier and I started to apply to schools in USA as it would be cheaper than England. I came to U.S and my aunt and I had many great conversations and I was finally free. I found out in June/July of 2005 that my immigrant visa had come through. I thought that I would never get it before I was 21 thus I went to USA as an international student. But in August I went back to Dar and our papers and stuff was finalized. My parents and I came to USA in Jan 2006. There are two other stories connected to this story but I'll leave that for another time. I am just concentrating on my trauma for now. So I have been in the USA for 4 yrs now. In 2007 mom complained of stomach problems (which was cancer but we didn't know) she was misdiagnosed with ulcers. In around June 2008 she got very ill and my dad took her to India where they found abnormal cancerous cells and we didn't tell her then. My family didn't tell anyone which was a mistake. Only my immediate family ie. my parents, my bro, me and my aunts' families knew. The doctors told us she had 3 months but we fought it so hard that she lived till November 2009. We did everything we could. I went twice to Dar es salaam in December 2007 and June 2008? (I am not sure) but more in June she had become more ill than December and I took care of her. I don't know how she made it to America in June 2009 but it was good because she got to see me and my bro and my aunt (Rehana) and uncle (Shamshu). I am glad she came as they got to see her for the last time as well as me. In Early November my brother went to dar (which was the best decision as one, he was closer to her and two, I was still in Uni). My bro was there when mom passed. I had said my goodbye here and astrally(I went to her and my brother in their dreams which I remember as well). I didn't feel guilty for not being there or anything as I did all I could for her. That's my story