Wednesday, August 25, 2021

Here I go down again

 so I made a list of all the pros and cons of dating Mr. Atlanta (due to privacy won’t disclose name), and there were many cons. There were also a couple of red flags that set me running in the other direction, how do you nicely tell another person that you don’t want to be with them? Is there a nice way? I don’t believe in “ghosting” a person. I was as honest as possible of course I didn’t mention to him about the red flags, hopefully he finds someone else for him. He is a nice guy but just not for me, I believe he needs a more traditional Indian woman, that’s certainly not me. If I am being real honest the long distance is an issue too since he’s a student he couldn’t come see me and I’m not well off to be going off to see him all the time. Right now there’s so many events going on in my personal life that I think I just need a break and  focus on my mental health. Some of the few things are my uncle has stage 4 cancer, my aunt had been constantly messaging me on how I am failing her despite my best attempts to buy groceries or do other shopping for her, I just feel like I cannot win in life. I definitely need therapy and right now I’m so broke that I don’t know how I’m going to pay for next month’s rent. Been trying to manage expenses and got rid of all subscriptions except Netflix but it’s still tight. Somehow I’ll pull through and in worst case scenario I have friends and family who I can borrow a small loan from. Been feeling like a miser lately and buying only things that are absolutely necessary. Wish me luck friends! Also a prayer helps too!